d o w n. . .
"i just can't get that laugh, that smile, off my mind's eye.. i need to forget.." - taken from "musings of a confused heart"

friday five. i'm late as usual. but i don't bloody give a shit.

1. When was the last time you laughed?
i laugh all the time. i'm a mad maniac who can't stop laughing. whatever. -_-

2. Who was the last person you had an argument with?
class's resident fatass. i told him to quit splattering saliva all over me.. which he does alot cos he's a little kou chi. he told me "so?" and i told him he should go attend a class on personal hygiene. gah.

3. Who was the last person you emailed?
haru! she wants to start a FB blog crew. lol.

4. When was the last time you bathed?
5 minutes ago? *__*

5. What was the last thing you ate?
wasabi crackers.

right. short and sweet question-types. don't really feel like blogging these days.. cos i'm not exactly in the best of moods. joined rene's kazuya minekura blog-crew as gojyo. cool. i have a thing for bishie red haired perverted kappa boys. -smirks- school today was same as always. phor was throwing one of his "i'm king" tantrums. someone should give him a banana and tell him to suck it. screw it. told jas and the rest about how j tried to chase me and ben. good thing we gave her the slip. mebbe cos her cute little legs are too short. hoho. *__* took a walk around jp with ben after sch today. had mos burger. yum. went to C.C but they were out of loki bk.1. *__* arghz. comic deprived. wandered into mu-ee and saw this cute devil plushie. so kawaii! heart pillow was nice too.. and the furry neko plushie thingy. too ex for me tho. sigh. went home to play bball. rick, mi, ben and yk.. garrick was being so mean to the poor old sissy china boy. ordered him off the court cos he was "underage". so lame.. lol.. but he really is a sissy. sigh. stefan came by later. went back soon after cos it was threatening to rain. kept seeing lightning. ironically it hasn't rained a drop till now. fubar. a fragment of our class pic. so qiao the four of us were placed together. we look like really happy dolts. lol.. no audrey tho. jia hates her guts. i can see why, but i find her ok sometimes.. =\ ..

somehow i feel like i'm being taken for granted most of the time. friends always tell me i'm easy going and nice to get along with. however middle people always get hurt. seeing 4e and back at 4-1 in the past, everything that happens to us back then happens here too.. the same catfights, squabbling and backstabbing.. and well- i guess i'm still stuck in the same old role. sometimes i really wish i could be a little more appreciated. i wish it were year 2004 now. or if i could go back in time, i wish i were back in good old jurong.. back in sec 3. memories... so much on my mind.

69 days to eminent doom. gambatte.. succeed or die in the attempt!... *__* it's finally starting to rain now.. how befitting for my mood..

postscript: "the sky is pitch-black, save for a few holes cut out in the black-lit canopy. i wish i could reach out beyond this darkness.. "